I started this blog after googling my conditions and finding a lot of bloggers that have an 'Invisible Illness' like mine.
A lot using it to raise awareness of chronic illness, a lot just blowing of steam. I guess I'm the latter.
I decided to start blogging because at the moment I feel like I complain to much to my boyfriend of 7 years. It's not fair on him as he can't do anything to help.
I'll post some personal stuff, things I like and just general randomness too.
My pain clinic gave me a diagram of the front and back of a guy and it said “mark where your pain is”
….I just circled the whole diagram.
Engagements everywhere! I need to live in a bubble! Was a live one on tv tonight too! Ffs…
Trying to choose the answer to the question “how are you?” isn’t simple anymore.
A) lie and say “I’m fine”
B) be vague and say “been better but ok”
C) give a list as long as the titanic of everything that’s hurting or bothering me the current moment
I’ve not been on Tumblr in so long, I’ve just noticed that my post has got 471 notes!!!
I can’t believe it! Thanks so much, I guess its just nice to know so many people feel the same way xoxo
So I’ve been with my boyfriend for 7 years and he still hasn’t proposed despite the hints.
I’ve started to give up. I mean we own our own home and have a dog, so I should be grateful for that, right?
What’s getting to me now is everyone around me getting engaged. I know 7 couples that have got engaged recently all but one have been together for less years than us.
At Christmas my cousin got engaged who had been with her partner 6 years. Last week my friend got engaged who had been with her partner 3 years. But now my brother proposed to his girlfriend on Friday and they’ve drove up to see us, they’ve been together 6 years too.
At my friends hen do one of her friends who has been married for 5 years told me she got engaged after 8 months. When she asked how long me and my boyfriend had been together her jaw actually dropped.
And I know there’s not a time limit. I just keep thinking I’ll be next. It doesn’t help that everytime this happens people on Facebook always say “its about time!!!” even in the case of the 3 year relationship. I keep thinking people pity me haha.
Don’t get me wrong, I couldn’t be happier for them (especially my brother and his fiance) and I’m really excited for the weddings coz I love them.
Also my brothers fiance has asked me to be a bridesmaid. :D
I just needed to get this out of my system, there’s nobody I can rant at without spoiling the happiness at the minute and making me sound bitter.
Last night me and my boyfriend were celebrating with 3 other couples who were all engaged. I mean COME ON! All were sharing their proposal stories and stories of the guy asking the girls dad etc. I just had to listen and force a smile while my boyfriend made jokes about them stopping giving me too much hope and ideas. Honestly I don’t think it will happen now, he really seems put off by weddings.
I’ve decided I’m going to give up, stop thinking about it and mentioning it. After our 10 year anniversary and he still hasn’t proposed I may be like “WTF dude?!!”